Falling From The Pedestal

“ We were born to be real not to be prefect”

Today I declare to you that I have jumped, leaped and falling down from my pedestal. Social media plays a huge roll in how others, my followers, fans and other health nuts view me. Happy, Healthy, Full of Life, Energetic, Soulful and a Ray of Sunshine right? Well let me tell you that yes if I don’t say so my self I am those things, however I am my biggest contradiction.

So Listen Up, This Is Whats Going Down...

I have been suffering from a mental illness, like so many out there who are suffering, honey I can totally relate. From bouncing off the walls, to being in the fetal position with mascara bleeding eyes and a bird’s nest hair do. I have felt the feelings of the emotions of my diagnosis and believe me its not been pretty, it has been a whirlwind of a ride and unfortunately I will never be off this rollercoaster.

Thankfully, I have embraced my illness, I am not defined by a label and I certainty want to rise up and break the stigma of mental health, because babe, I did not choose this, it choose me. Its my beautiful hidden blessing. I am blessed to have this illness. I am learning so much about my self, I am finding out so much about others, I am learning who my true friends and support net work are, and I have gained insight on the importance of a strong family bond. A mixture of self-belief and unconditional love has helped me get through some of the lowest days of my life.

Hanging Up The Wings...

So today I decide to hang up my wings, I leave the title of “Super Woman” and I choose to be just “Woman” all woman, in all my glory, in all my moods, in my mess and in my triumphs. I am my biggest contradiction and I love that about my self. I ramble on about self love, being mindful, eating well and living a holistic life and most of the time yes I am that girl, but I have that side of me, that sad little lonely side that drops it all and heads down a dark suburban road with no intention of ever coming back. Luckily down that road I can see a light and I always follow that light and get my self back out each time.

So let me ask YOU, are you trying to be “Super Woman”? Are you trying to be something that your not? Are you faking it till you making it, but just end up faking it all? You need to drop this charade, you’re not fooling any one and babes it must be super exhausting on your soul.

Perfection Can Go Suck A Fat One...

We are not perfect; in fact we should all be far from it. I love every flaw that I have. I love the fact that I rub my nose with my knuckles, I love the fact that I say “totally” and “amazing” after every second word. I love every freckle that lays on my body, I love every bump and blemish. I love how imperfect I am. I have truly fallen from my pedestal and its so liberating, and I want to encourage you to do the same. Drop the shit and be you, be all of you. You do not have to prove your self with you Super Woman, instead be the fun loving, quirky weirdo that is within. I like her, I want to meet her!!

Love + Light,

Nikki x